Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

  • Nightmare

    I woke up this morning to an absolutely horrible nightmare. I had a dream that we were at a festival of sorts and parked. The children bolted out of the car and asked if they could go play and I asked them to stay together. When it was time to go I pinged their phone Continue reading

  • Flashback

    There was a quote I heard a lifetime ago. “We all have our time machines. Those that take us back are memories. Those that carry us forward are dreams.” There are some songs that instantly transport me back to a moment in time and today it was a string of songs. I started with Lay Continue reading

  • Melting melting

    Where did you go June Gloom? Come back! At 7:30am the sun was beaming through my window – ugh, that’s too sunny to walk. Downstairs for meds and some food to go with the pills. My machine didn’t come with test strips – so I have to go back to the pharmacy again today. I Continue reading

  • Spin me round…

    A shorter walk today but a walk nonetheless. Continued my audiobook which emphasized habits and how to stick to habits. I’ve been just telling myself to just show up to walking, same for writing. Sometimes I have nothing to say, nothing positive or negative. I just have nothing that even Baba Yaga is quiet. Went Continue reading

  • Movement

    It was far too sunny to walk yesterday so I decided to ride the stationary bike only to come downstairs to J asking if I was ready to go. “Sure.” He decided we were going to go to the Farmers Market. We got cherries, basil and pizza dough. When we got home I got in Continue reading

  • Sunny Day

    I happen to be one of the strange ones that don’t like the sun. Even when I wasn’t sick, I never liked the bright sun and opted for cloudy or rainy days. Often I hear people tell me how depressed they feel when it was cloudy or rainy out. Yet, I always felt energized by Continue reading

  • Mother Daughter Day

    I am grateful for a do-over birthday with S. I had to cancel and reschedule because I was undergoing my first round of chemo at the time. Auntie K took her for a day out which was wonderful and today we got to cash in on our rain check. As we dined on the array Continue reading

  • $500K

    Not feeling a million bucks but at least 500K though (hence my post naming). Fog is better – back on Metformin daily to help with the blood sugar. I have a follow up appointment to see if going on the ozempic is better. (Ozempic face + Chemo face and bald – I’m on my way Continue reading

  • Fog

    The last few days I have been super foggy. I forget conversations, pills, time and even random situations. And the natural first thought was a stroke. My hemoglobin levels have been stable. Couldn’t figure out if it was lack of water or lack of sleep. Some moments of clarity but most often confused. Confused with Continue reading

  • Quiet

    Despite not sleeping well, I was the first one to wake up this morning. How many quiet mornings do I get? How many more mornings do I get to hear the quiet snores of my children? For some reason, the death of that cheerleader has stayed with me the last few days and I haven’t Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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