Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

June 2024

  • Always Expect to Pivot

    I start this morning off with the evil chuckle. Look I don’t claim to be everyone’s cup of tea, but I’m also not going to hold back if it’s funny. Yes the doggo is cute and ugly all wrapped up in one. But when you post photos consistently of your daughter on social media. Help Continue reading

  • Strapped In

    Secondary blood test show cancer blast. Explains a lot of the pain as well as my inability to rebound after May’s chemo. Dr. P is going to reach back out to the study drug sponsors and ask for acceptance into the drug and will try to schedule a biopsy for next week to get a Continue reading

  • Stuck

    I talk a lot about growing up with nothing. Truth is I grew up alone. I look different and as a result, I didn’t make very many friends, but I faced it because I was brave because I didn’t have a choice. Day 2 of summer camp, and my son is trying to run and Continue reading

  • Round and Round

    The doctors said I should have rebounded by now from last month’s chemo but my numbers haven’t recovered. They did a blood test and it came back with 15% cancer found in the blood. But those tests are really accurate. So he told me not to over think. Next step is another biopsy to see Continue reading

  • Struggle Is Real

    We are camping for Father’s Day Weekend. I’m finally out by the fire in the hammock. My right hand is frozen cold but I’m trying to be outside a little bit. Not only has this round been hard with the bone pain and aches; the depression is deep. I can’t get myself out. I got Continue reading

  • Been a while….

    It’s been a while since I have posted. I’ve been in my own head about going back on chemo. I also have felt like complete garbage…again. I don’t miss this at all. I’ve been here before. I did the 8 rounds of chemo before transplant, I’ve been here before. But that’s not the point. The Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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