Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

Sat 12/09 – I spent the whole day yesterday in and out of sleep and throwing up. It wasn’t exactly glamorous. I had no energy for anything. The coughing is excessive but the fever I gone thankfully. Day 3 of antibiotics 1 I don’t know if I feel any different but I will say last night I had such pain in my chest I thought I was having a heart attack. The pain kept returning over and over – even I was worried and I googled the symptoms. I laid down finally with my ocean music and passed out.

Woke up this morning and decided to take a shower. This is quite ambitious of me. S showers in my bedroom and beyond the hairs that she stick all over the walls.

Hemoglobin was at 9 today no transfusion needed. My platelets are dropping again. I’m at 34 today and if I hit below 10 I’ll need a platelet transfusion. I have Monday labs to monitor it – I really try to avoid going to COH for anything except dressing change, labs and Dr P. Much rather do everything else near home. I’d rather go to the ER by home and get blood and platelets than go to COH.

My throat has been sore for the remainder of the day and after I got back from the infusion center I went straight to bed after I dry heaved on the front lawn. My whole body hurts from my toes to my earlobes. The children went to a birthday party and my friend F asked if we wanted a ride for them. Thank you F! Absolutely grateful! I felt super sick and threw up my pills again. Spent the remainder of the afternoon in and out of sleep.

My days are blurring together I don’t know my up from my down. Just mentally checked out. It’s 4:13am I can’t sleep. Maybe cause I slept all afternoon to mid evening. I got up to make kids oatmeal before my appointment at COH. Again I hate going there.