Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

December 2023

  • NYE

    NYE looks different this year. We aren’t on our annual NorCal trip. Social media is flooded with everyone’s 2023 recaps. I started off my 2023 riding ebikes along the coast unfortunately we found out too late that the Costco, Jetson bikes that we had purchased didn’t really have the mileage and about 3/4 of a Continue reading

  • Bomb

    Especially during the holidays I’ve been seeing a lot of food posts on social media, and the comment section is always about how completely attractive a man that cooks is. The comment section is flooded with how sexy it is and attractive it is that a man cooks. So yeah…no. What is sexy and attractive Continue reading

  • Sick

    I haven’t felt well and my mind starts going. My mind is getting the best of me. What if I’m not doing well because it’s not working. I’m scared it’s my last Christmas and I’m missing out on doing the traditional things. I’m scared and I don’t want to be. My throat I getting sore Continue reading

  • Asleep

    The last few days have largely been me being asleep. I an extremely tried without barely the energy to get up to use the toilet. I’m not sure what’s going on and why I’m so tried but that’s been the status quo. I woke up this morning to make breakfast for the children and proceeded Continue reading

  • Sick Sucks

    Sat 12/09 – I spent the whole day yesterday in and out of sleep and throwing up. It wasn’t exactly glamorous. I had no energy for anything. The coughing is excessive but the fever I gone thankfully. Day 3 of antibiotics 1 I don’t know if I feel any different but I will say last Continue reading

  • Thank you Universe

    CA EDD approved the 10/1 – 10/31 so we have breathing room. 11/1 LTD also got approved so I can breathe even more moving forward and won’t be living under a bridge. Mortgage can be paid. Thank you Universe. My one hiccup now is that the LTD Math ain’t Mathin’ – my analyst is not Continue reading

  • ER

    The roads we take try do ebb and flow. I’m back in the ER. My hemoglobin dropped to 5.4 which is making me extremely tachycardic which feels like my heart is leaping out of my chest. I sent J to work since nothing in the ER is quick. I hate the SpO2 finger monitor cause Continue reading

  • MRD

    I may have spoke too soon. MRD is the Minimum Residual Disease Test. An MRD negative result means that no disease was detected after treatment. Doctors use MRD to measure the effectiveness of treatment and to predict which patients are at risk of relapse. It can also help doctors confirm and monitor remissions, and possibly Continue reading

  • Time

    I received a text early this morning 5:30am that when I woke up to please give a call. The text said that it wasn’t good news. I called when I got up. The words “My father died last night.” I’m in shock. He was over the house last night, I said. “Yes, he was.” How? Continue reading

  • Sleepless

    It’s 2:00am; I can’t sleep. I am trying to work through my rage and I can’t. My son would tell me that I am giving this person free rent in my head. He is wise beyond his years and he’s right. All I can think of is that we were done but we keep getting Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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