Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

October 2023

  • Starting Line

    The starting line. Sound odd because I’ve been fighting this cancer for the last 6 months. When I first got cancer in March, the goal was to be in medical remission and then look for a donor. Dr C told me from the very start – my AML is in the med/high risk category which Continue reading

  • Different Weekends

    Shortly after eating breakfast both children raced out of the house to be with their friends. “Love you!” As I hear the garage door close. I’m left to Google. The reality of transplant is starting to settle in. What are the risks? Risks of not doing this – cancer returning until the chemotherapy no longer Continue reading

  • Biopsy

    Still fuming from the flag football coach that just left children at a sports complex alone after he ends practice early and can be bothered to use the group text that he set up. What nonsense. I spoke with the Commissioner who spoke to the Volunteer Coach this afternoon about his behavior. How desperately I Continue reading

  • Friday Junior

    Woke up at 4:30am and stared at my phone for another 45 minutes until the alarm went off at 7:00am. My plans are laundry – can’t wait. But since I did absolutely nothing yesterday today gets to be my more productive day. Still waiting on the bone marrow biopsy results. I know that for the Continue reading

  • Unproductive

    I didn’t roll out of bed until close to 11:45am. I chatted on the phone catching up with a friend and did absolutely nothing. I drank some clear broth and sat in the couch doing a whole lot of nothing. I wasted my time today watching dog videos on instagram and I’m not feeling one Continue reading

  • Reality TV

    Hello New Low… there is something about watching reality TV that almost makes you feel better about your own life. Like sure, we all have our own problems and we’re all struggling and doing our best to just survive, but reality TV gives you a new and wonderful perspective on your own life. Like yeah Continue reading

  • Loops

    Friday evening and all of Saturday was spent with an ice pack and pain meds. Wow. Felt no pain during the procedure but so much delightful pain afterwards. Besides slow walking it to the bathroom – I laid in bed. I didn’t even have it in me to watch TV. I scrolled mindlessly through social Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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