There’s always something about biopsy day that makes me anxious. It’s not like a test you can study for. It’s just something you either pass or fail. But it’s completely out of your control. At this point, drinking the “super green juice” isn’t going to change your results. So why the anxiety? Because if it’s Continue reading

Little has slept with me two nights in a row. She likes it when I pat her back to sleep. It relaxes me as well. Her little baby snores. Tomorrow is just hydration which I need since I need to do my 24 hour urine testing and for some reason – it needs to be Continue reading

Little has slept with me two nights in a row. She likes it when I pat her back to sleep. It relaxes me as well. Her little baby snores. Tomorrow is just hydration which I need since I need to do my 24 hour urine testing and for some reason – it needs to be Continue reading

I realized about 6 months ago that I wasn’t on every utility bill and as such these companies wouldn’t talk to me. Fine. I’m not on the damn account. Well today o wanted to adjust a few things on an account an of course I wasn’t on it. So I was “J” for the day. Continue reading

I am trying to be more present. Be there. YOLO. But I need to be honest I’m not a mom that likes to bake with their children. In fact, I short of hate it. I hate the mess and the complete disaster of a kitchen all in the name of “I can do it by Continue reading

Ever notice something more when you’re experiencing it? When I got e-scooters, all of a sudden I saw e-scooters EVERYWHERE. Like all of a sudden the entire neighborhood had damn e-scooters. Same for when I got an e-bike, like literally everyone had one. Now cancer is everywhere, every celebrity has it and it’s everywhere. I’ve Continue reading

My days blur together. I don’t think it’s chemo brain though…I think it’s a lack of purpose. I’ve had to re-evaluate myself heavily since the cancer diagnosis. Who am I without my profession? I’ve been looking into Cricut system because my A has one. Am I a crafts person? I feel like I don’t think Continue reading

I have some jankey budget internet that I pay an arm and a leg for but 4 devices can not connect at one time. The last two days haven’t been high energy at all. I woke up this morning to peel myself out of bed to make breakfast for the children and proceeded to climb Continue reading

He already ate breakfast by the time I came downstairs at 6:30am. I wanted to make him an egg but I’ll do it this evening for dinner. It’s not fancy but it’s a tradition. He wants no gifts except for me to get better. There were instant tears when I read that last night. I’m Continue reading

It went from just giving birth to double digits to a tween. My mind still can’t wrap my brain around this. Tomorrow starts the routine again, labs then infusion, pick up Walmart and cake. I asked if he wanted a party or celebration with his friends – he said he only wanted to have a Continue reading