Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

Where did you go June Gloom? Come back! At 7:30am the sun was beaming through my window – ugh, that’s too sunny to walk. Downstairs for meds and some food to go with the pills. My machine didn’t come with test strips – so I have to go back to the pharmacy again today. I don’t know if I have it in my to drive today – mentally. I asked J, I still haven’t worked out. I tested out a Greek yogurt cake however, so it’s not energy. It’s motivation at this point.

My children like to ask me to buy them Chobani. I get 4 and it’s consumed in one day and I’m asked again to please buy more. At this point I’m not driving. Not that I have lost any abilities but the Skittles of medicine makes me drowsy so driving isn’t recommended, plus with fogginess I may ended up in TJ without remembering where I was going in the first place. But a zip to the pharmacy should be fine. Going back on my Chobani rant – I love me some Greek Yogurt. It’s tasty and a great snack for me. But being that driving is limited I’m using grocery delivery and of course there’s a $35 delivery limit and for Amazon it’s now $150. That’s a lot so I look for deals, my day isn’t exactly jammed packed. Chobani was on sale $.50 per – pretty good deal. I buy 10. Annnnnd they have been sitting in the fridge for a damn week. No one is eating it, in fact, they are “over” Chobani now. If I didn’t have cancer…I’d slipper them upside the head. Now I have 10 Chobani and no takers. Hence the Greek Yogurt Loaf – I can use 4 Chobani Yogurts per recipe so that means I only have to eat 2. I’m not buying Chobani for a hot minute!

Surprisingly it tastes pretty good. M returns from her trip today, so since it was successful there will be a loaf with her name on it. I clearly don’t send out baked goods that are not tasty, they go in the trash. S was very skeptical as I told her there was Chobani in it so she was reluctant to try. She took one nibble and sliced herself 1/4 of the loaf. Clearly she didn’t take any issue to it after tasting it. J however hates it. Apparently he doesn’t like strawberry flavored things – but likes strawberry jam and strawberry lemonade. Ummm…I am making a face. I think he’s just a picky b*tch. Lol.

It’s now 9:15pm and I completed my weight training, I was going to bail but wanted to show up. 3 lbs weights are my max right now, and while it’s not much it’s enough for me to ache on top of the chemo body aches. It’s a lovely combination. I realize for myself the importance right now to point the needle in the positive direction as chemo rounds only get harder and when transplant is ready – my body will go through the ringer so I’m trying to give myself some strength.

I tried calling COH again to schedule my specialized PICC but still no luck, maybe tomorrow it’ll be scheduled. I’d like to go camping without a PICC line and have some enjoyment before the next round of chemo, while it’s not impossible to go camping with a PICC it’s not super comfortable plus it’ll be very warm and keeping myself clean while camping will be a challenge. Fingers crossed that I can keep a July 5th appointment. Otherwise, PICC camping it’ll be. Let’s see what happens.