Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

June 2023

  • Swing and a miss

    4.15 mile walk today. I felt good enough this morning to have a nice long walk today. The sun and I raced home, I eeked out a win but I also think the sun let me win as I saw it wink at me in the sky. When J got home I thought I was Continue reading

  • Pivot

    When I hear the word “pivot” I instantly think of Ross Gellar screaming “PIVOT” in the couch scene of Friends, though now “pivot” feels different to me when I hear it. I think of my mistakes and think of my “pivot”. This cancer certain is a pivot for me. I used to work 10-12 hours Continue reading

  • And so it goes…

    I could make the excuse that I didn’t get my sneakers delivered on time or that it wasn’t cloudy long enough for my walk. I simply wasn’t motivated today to show up today. I got to thinking about A last night and stayed in a funk. There are friends that come and go, a lot Continue reading

  • Easy Like Sunday Morning

    Yesterday was dedicated to the children’s swimming meet. I stepped back from being over extended to the swim team not only because it didn’t serve me but also because I physically don’t have the energy. We got up early and was at the pool by 6:45am by the time it ended at 1:45pm I was Continue reading

  • Miscalculations

    The sun punked me this morning, I woke up much earlier than I wanted and couldn’t fall back asleep. These days the only alarm I have is my water alarm, and even that I sometimes pause. I headed out at 6:30 am for my walk and finally finished “Atomic Behaviors”. I’ll be honest, it took Continue reading

  • Nightmare

    I woke up this morning to an absolutely horrible nightmare. I had a dream that we were at a festival of sorts and parked. The children bolted out of the car and asked if they could go play and I asked them to stay together. When it was time to go I pinged their phone Continue reading

  • Flashback

    There was a quote I heard a lifetime ago. “We all have our time machines. Those that take us back are memories. Those that carry us forward are dreams.” There are some songs that instantly transport me back to a moment in time and today it was a string of songs. I started with Lay Continue reading

  • Melting melting

    Where did you go June Gloom? Come back! At 7:30am the sun was beaming through my window – ugh, that’s too sunny to walk. Downstairs for meds and some food to go with the pills. My machine didn’t come with test strips – so I have to go back to the pharmacy again today. I Continue reading

  • Spin me round…

    A shorter walk today but a walk nonetheless. Continued my audiobook which emphasized habits and how to stick to habits. I’ve been just telling myself to just show up to walking, same for writing. Sometimes I have nothing to say, nothing positive or negative. I just have nothing that even Baba Yaga is quiet. Went Continue reading

  • Movement

    It was far too sunny to walk yesterday so I decided to ride the stationary bike only to come downstairs to J asking if I was ready to go. “Sure.” He decided we were going to go to the Farmers Market. We got cherries, basil and pizza dough. When we got home I got in Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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