Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

May 2023

  • Her

    I can’t say I’m an avid reader…as I don’t actually read. I’m an avid “listener”. I use to commute 5 hours a day to work. My train mates watched movies on their iPads while I found myself unable to enter the suspension of disbelief to enjoy any show. Instead I’d fire up the laptop and Continue reading

  • Universe

    I was super tired last night and drifted off until my bladder was going to burst at 4:30am. Since I couldn’t drift back to sleep I started to read an article but I fell asleep before I finished. I picked it up another 2 times, drifting in and out of sleep, before I actually finished Continue reading

  • Normal

    Time: 5:45am Place: Walmart Mission: Laugh My morning started with a pick up at 5:45am to Walmart. Why would anyone get up tat early for Walmart? Because I’m neutropenic and it’s Walmart. Now I’m not knocking the WM. I love the WM and it’s one of my favorite places to go. However there are people Continue reading

  • Sleeping Beauty

    I spent just about the entirety of yesterday asleep. I did absolutely nothing but sleep, chemo, sleep, eat and sleep. I really wanted to be active yesterday but nope, sleep. So there was nothing to post as I was not conscience lol. Truly just feel like a total waste of a day, but I know Continue reading

  • Luck

    Dr. B called today. I needed to understand what the next steps were and how I am to proceed since I need a transplant without it, my Leukemia will return. Dr. B said, it’s not a if, but when. Awesome! So what does that actually mean? It means that regardless of my remission status, I Continue reading

  • Energy

    Lacking energy today. I had enough to go and sit with the kids this morning, then I fell asleep after they went to school. I found myself unable to do many chores this morning. I was able to load the dishwasher but ran out of gas afterwards and napped again. It seems that’s all I Continue reading

  • Normalcy

    Early chemo today with dressing change. I forgot my cancer bag at home today so didn’t have any of the comforts for today. My parents picked up the kids in the morning for Sunday breakfast but turned out to be an all day event to include making scallion pancakes, gardening and a trip to McDonald’s. Continue reading

  • Laughter

    Walked down the block yesterday in the early evening, got my the evening sun bath again. Afterwards, looked for something on Netflix Looked through the comedy section and couldn’t find much and then landed on Jo Koy. I laughed. It’s good to have that belly laugh, but even better if you’re going to pee yourself. Continue reading

  • Peaceful-ish Morning

    I had a hard time getting up this morning, and didn’t leave the bed until well after 10:30am. Got a text from J about some school shooting hoax on social media that caused a frenzy at some of the neighboring schools. Just bananas. I had just a bit of energy to get working on some Continue reading

  • Gratitude

    I made the choice to get up this morning and have breakfast with the kids. It’s Teacher Appreciation Week at school which I missed but my wonderful neighbor who happens to also have kids in the same school and classes as my kids offered me flowers yesterday. Which I responded “Thank you so much, why Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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