Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

I had a hard time getting up this morning, and didn’t leave the bed until well after 10:30am. Got a text from J about some school shooting hoax on social media that caused a frenzy at some of the neighboring schools. Just bananas. I had just a bit of energy to get working on some home logistics stuff – hospital bills are funneling in and so I’m starting to ask for breakdowns and see what insurance is or isn’t covering. Of course, everything is due in May. Car registration, insurance…etc. Cause why wouldn’t everything be due in May lol. No real appetite today, I cut and apple and after a few bites lost the desire to eat. J won’t be thrilled. Plus my picc is super pinchy today, right at the elbow and cold.

I had Nurse M at chemo again, she’s really sweet. We finished the saline this time as last time I didn’t and thought I could replace it by drinking water except I was super nauseous so that didn’t happen. This time I made sure to finish the IV bag. I have learned some important cancer lessons: hydration, prunes, coconut oil and gratitude. Optional: Good playlist. I thought I’d binge watch shows on Netflix or play cards…etc. I barely had the energy or the mood to do anything. I listened to a lot of music. Mostly Healing mhz as crazy as that sounds. It helped me relax and sleep. I wore ear plugs to block out the extra noise. Look people play music for their plants… they have no ears but the frequency is suppose to promote growth. So I applied the same “theory” to myself. I have to find something that I can use without being obnoxious.

J is on me about my weight, I get weighed every time I get chemo. I dropped 2.5 pounds and did not make eye contact with J. If only it was the FAT that was being lost! I didn’t have much muscle to begin with, so I can see that I don’t have much more muscle to loose.

I didn’t have enough energy yesterday to finish the post. Not only was I super nauseous I didn’t have anything left in the tank.