Battle Hymns of a Hot Mess Mom

One day at a time…

May 2023

  • Homeward

    By the time I woke up this morning J had already packed up the trailer and kids just needed to wake up. Cereal down the hatch and it’s off to the dump station – which was a line. We didn’t end up leaving until 10:30am and arrived home at 1:00pm. Laundry, dinner then L and Continue reading

  • Well there’s that…

    I overdid it yesterday and walked much further than I should have and exerted more than my tank had to offer. My whole body hurts today day. But I have no regrets. I absolutely loves seeing the kids building the dam. So worth it even if it has resulted in me sleeping most of the Continue reading

  • Back

    S’s play yesterday was wonderful I’m so glad that I did not miss it. S was nervous but had the biggest smile when we locked eyes. It was a great feeling seeing her so happy. I made J save seat because I wasn’t going to be fast enough to get there! I was up front Continue reading

  • Transplant

    I got the “welcome book” from BeTheMatch.com – it tells me how I need to trust the process. I am starting to do a little baking again, I really enjoyed that during Covid and still do. I don’t have the same stamina as before so the process is slower – there are a few naps Continue reading

  • Bowl cut

    I thought I felt like a rockstar this morning and lifted weights (3lbs) – I won’t be signing up for Ironmans any time soon. While I didn’t work up a sweat I still showered and promptly went to bed afterwards and woke up around 12:30pm. Though I wasn’t a couch potato per say, I wasn’t Continue reading

  • Cold

    I’m always cold. Feet, arms, chest…always cold. Apparently this may stay with me long after the cancer fades. The cold never bothered me anyway… That’s not entirely true and this cold is down to the bones – it slightly hurts when it’s cold. S had me put oil in her hair tonight as well as Continue reading

  • …

    I was fast enough on my feet that I was able to get to FedEx before they left with my chemo medication. Yesterday was quiet, I was excited to have the house fill with kids and noise. I’m excited to be with them this summer; just being together getting to be near them will be Continue reading

  • Just Not Okay

    I found it hard to wake up this morning, and laid in bed until mid morning. By the time I went downstairs I was already behind on my meds and water. From there my annoyance got the better of me. My grocery order that I made last night that had a 9:00am – 12:00pm delivery Continue reading

  • Stupidity

    I’m struggling today – for some reason health care people that I have been in contact with equate cancer with stupidity. The cancer pharmacy called me today and talked to me about my medication refills. I didn’t bother getting her name. She asked me if there was anything I had questions about. I inquired why Continue reading

  • Her Who?

    I was too tired yesterday to finished my thoughts yesterday. It’s not like a car that runs out of gas and slowly goes to zero. I don’t know if that actually work that way, but that’s what I think happens. It’s more like a light switch. It’s on or off. I have no strength but Continue reading

About Me

Hello, my name is Nina. I am a mother, wife, daughter and friend. I am lover of country music, & 80’s love ballad. I love me some karaoke! I identify as hot mess mom. I get it wrong, all the time. On the rare occasions I get it right? Even I’m shocked.

I am a working professional in the field of Compliance. I am mother two, daughter to immigrant parents, wife to a “redneck” – and proud of it, sister-in-law to the two most incredible human beings I have ever met and a niece that is just so cool but doesn’t know it.

I work too hard and play too little. I’ve always focus on the wrong thing and never quite sure if I’m ever enough. I grew up on the East Coast and was a latchkey kid in the 80’s and 90’s – I dodged the sketchy people on the walk home and tried not to end up on a milk carton.

I went to a very privileged Boarding School on the East Coast and college after that. (So yeah that’s exactly why this journal will be riddled with grammatical and spelling errors. On the days I feel good, I’ll type it out. On the days I don’t feel good it’ll be voice to text. I can not be held liable for the things Siri puts in as my “voice”. ) Graduated on a Friday and started Fleet Bank on a Saturday. I hustled my way through the midnight shift at DHL and hustled and hustled and hustled. I knew nothing except the hustle. (As I said, I’m a hot mess mom).

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