J took me to see a 10am showing of John Wick 4 – there were only a few people in the theatre and I wore my mask the whole time. You’d think cancer would make me a lovey, dovey, warm and fuzzy…nope, love John Wick 4 as well as the immense violence. It was great. Continue reading

J and I got to chatting earlier this morning about how we grew up, thinking about our childhoods. I saw this meme on IG that made me chuckle. It was about house rules growing up – getting all the chores done without any back talk. The reward was not getting your as* beat LMAO. Parenting Continue reading

8:30am Last night J and I were talking before bed and he asked me who I write to in the blog. Who do I talk to? I didn’t know how to answer that. Who is my actual audience? Beyond therapy why do I write? Sometimes I write as I’m talking to S, sometimes it’s L Continue reading

I was super productive today, waited and signed for my chemo medication. I ate some sliced apples and napped. A true hero! I also stash away Amazon returns in a bag, called the pharmacy to check on my medication and called the oncologist to let them know I had my chemo meds. I’m very proud Continue reading

To the ladies who have done S’s hair…thank you as now my inadequacies are that much more highlighted. 😂 Though these morning views are pretty amazing. Better than any ocean. It’s crooked and it looks a little weird but she likes it. Thank god she can’t see the back of her head. Above is a Continue reading

Where did all the energy go? That’s the new view curled up on the recliner with a quilt and my baby’s baby blanket…and sock shoes. It’s not the ocean view as before but having the kiddos meander around the kitchen in the morning is a way better. Watch them eat breakfast and like a tornado Continue reading

It was a quiet Sunday. Kids played at the park. J took them to pool. They were kids… I napped most of Sunday. My energy level is definitely not where I want it to be. Still shedding like a dog. Cause the hair can’t just go…we gotta draw this out. Legs and back still hurt…seems Continue reading

I didn’t think I’d have the opportunity to be apart of S’s birthday let along celebrate a portion with her. That was an amazing blessing. Grandpa and I got to the park at 6am while it was nice and cool out to stake our claim. Grandpa thought we were cray to stake it at 6am. Continue reading

Just like yesterday my day started around blood draw time. Though I was able to sleep until 5:38am today. It was a solid night of sleep without Kevin. I hear “ghost beeps” at times. I spent most of yesterday wallowing. I shouldn’t because I’m here and because I should be grateful there even is a Continue reading

J looked like Santa every time he left room 17. Bags and bags of stuff. Blankets. Pillows. Suitcase. Clothes (that I never did wear – for some reason I thought I needed yoga pants). I did not. I wore my jammies – the entire time. I had 3 jammies in rotation – hygiene check! I Continue reading